The Gloryhole Waiting Room, part 1

The Gloryhole Waiting Room, part 1 荣耀洞等候室，第一部分

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This is about the first time that I started sucking dick at the gloryhole. With a line of over 15 men waiting to use the hole, and growing each minute, I guess you could say I was thrown into the deep end of the pool. What's more, I was being filmed doing it. 这个故事讲述的是我第一次在荣耀洞为男人口交的经历。当时有超过 15 人排队等候使用那个小洞，而且每分钟队伍都在增长，可以说我是被直接扔进了深水区。更刺激的是，整个过程被人录了下来。

But let me give you some background. I was 18. All I could think about was sex. From the boys in my class to my male teachers--all I could think about was guys. And I usually fantasized was how great it would be suck their dicks. But that never happened. I was much too scared to try anything. But my want, even need, for it kept growing. In retrospect, I really needed someone who could help me break out of my shell. And luckily I was soon to meet that person. 先说说背景吧。那年我 18 岁，满脑子都是性。从班上男生到男老师——我整天幻想着男人们。最常出现的幻想就是给他们口交该有多棒。但这从未实现过，我胆小得不敢尝试任何行动。可这种渴望，甚至说是需求，却与日俱增。回想起来，当时我确实需要有人帮我打破这个枷锁。幸运的是，我很快就遇到了那个人。

The other thing that you need to know is the first time I learned about glory holes. I remember I was at a mall with a group of guys. And when I went to use the restroom, I noticed that there was a hole in the stall. You could see right through to the other one. The mall was in a bad part of town, and I was just so naive that I thought that maybe the place was falling apart. Like maybe a handle had fallen off. Later on I joked about it to one of my friends. He did not know that I was gay or might have any interest in such a thing. However, he did know what a glory hole was. He got this mischievous grin on his face and jokingly said, Gross dude! He explained that the hole was for a guy to stick his dick through, and for another guy to suck it. 另外你需要知道的是，我第一次听说"glory holes"的情形。记得当时我和一群男生在商场里，去洗手间时发现隔间墙上有个洞，能直接看到隔壁。那商场位于城中治安较差的区域，天真的我还以为可能是设施年久失修——比如某个把手脱落了。后来我把这事当玩笑讲给朋友听，他并不知道我是 gay 或对此类事物感兴趣，但他清楚什么是 glory hole。他露出促狭的笑容调侃道："恶不恶心啊老兄！"并解释说那个洞是让男人把生殖器伸过去，供另一侧的人进行口交用的。

I was kind of blown away by that. I had not ever heard of anything that inventive in relation to sex. And there was something so appealing about a perfect stranger sticking his penis through the hole, waiting for you to pleasure it, that I couldn't stop thinking about it. That night was the first one of many that I jerked off thinking about being on my knees in front of a hole like that. And the more I fantasized about gloryholes, the more elaborate the fantasy became. Like I was not just servicing one guy, but sometimes two or three, or even a whole line of guys. 我对此感到相当震惊。我从未听说过如此富有创意的性爱方式。那种关于一个完全陌生的人将他的阴茎穿过洞口，等待你去取悦它的想法，有种难以抗拒的吸引力，让我无法停止想象。那晚是我无数次幻想着跪在那样一个洞口前自慰的开始。随着我对窥视孔幻想的深入，场景也变得越来越复杂。比如我不只是服务一个人，有时是两三个，甚至是一整排的男人。

But I knew that was a ridiculous fantasy. I was way too shy. I did not go back to that hole nor did I act on my desires for other guys. I was too nervous about how it would be received. But later that year, about six months later, I turned 18. I figured this was something of a turning point for me, that it might be time for me to get out of my shell. At the same time, I had discovered the personals section on Craigslist. I would often get very horny just reading the message boards. So one day I was looking at the personals, just kind of scrolling, and I saw one that caught my eye. 但我知道那只是个荒谬的幻想。我太害羞了。我没有再回到那个洞口，也没有对其他男人采取行动。我太担心会如何被看待。然而那年晚些时候，大约六个月后，我满 18 岁了。我觉得这对我来说是个转折点，也许是时候走出自己的壳了。同时，我发现了 Craigslist 上的个人广告板块。光是浏览那些留言板就常常让我欲火焚身。有一天，我正在看个人广告，随意滚动时，有一条特别吸引了我的注意。

The title said, Looking for Glory Hole Cocksucker. As I started to read the description, my heart beat a little bit faster. It said, I am a handsome, 50 year old guy and it has always been my fantasy to watch a younger guy suck cock at a glory hole. So I constructed a GH on one of my properties. It has all the amenities that both the guy servicing and the guy being serviced might need. It is a great way for you to explore your sexuality, especially if you are younger and this is new to you. The only catch is that you would have to let me watch. If this interests you, please send me a message with your picture and we can arrange a meeting. 标题写着：《寻找 Glory Hole 口交者》。当我开始阅读描述时，心跳微微加速。内容写道：我是一位英俊的 50 岁男士，一直有个幻想，想看着年轻人在 Glory Hole 为别人口交。于是我在自己的一处房产里搭建了一个 Glory Hole，配备了服务者和被服务者可能需要的所有便利设施。这是你探索性取向的绝佳方式，尤其对年轻或初体验者而言。唯一的要求是允许我在旁观看。若感兴趣，请附照片私信，我们可以安排见面。

I felt extremely nervous, even anxious. I wasn't sure about meeting an older guy under these pretexts. However, the more I thought about it, the more I realized it was kind of perfect. I didn't have to risk being rejected by a guy at school. Nor did I have to try this at a public place where I could get in trouble. And the best part was that I got to actually try a glory hole! I had been fantasizing nonstop about them since I first learned what one was. So I thought, What the heck. I snapped a selfie. When I looked at it, I saw a young guy with shaggy blond hair, long eyelashes, blue eyes, nice thick lips, and a boyish face. I sent that picture along to the guy with the personals ad. It read: Hello, my name is Kevin. I am an 18-year-old guy and I am interested in what you proposed. If this is serious, I would be interested in talking more. Oh, and here is a picture just in case you want to see what I look like. 我感到极度紧张，甚至焦虑。对于以这样的借口去见一个年长的男人，我并不确定。然而，我越想越觉得这简直完美。我不必冒着在学校被男生拒绝的风险，也不必在公共场所尝试而惹上麻烦。最棒的是，我真的可以尝试一下“glory hole”！自从第一次知道它是什么以来，我就一直对它念念不忘。所以我想，管他呢。我拍了一张自拍。看着照片里的自己——一个金色乱发、长睫毛、蓝眼睛、嘴唇丰满、带着稚气的年轻男孩。我把这张照片连同文字发给了那个刊登个人广告的男人：“你好，我叫凯文，18 岁，对你的提议很感兴趣。如果这是认真的，我愿意进一步聊聊。附上照片，以防你想看看我的样子。”

I almost instantly received a reply. The guy said that his name was Bill, and he was hoping that we could chat on the phone. He sent his number along. At this point I was living with my parents, but they were out for the afternoon. And so I nervously picked up my cell phone and dialed the numbers. It rang twice and then I heard a voice on the other end of the line pick up. I said, Hi, umm, this is, umm, Kevin, I'm calling you about the ad that you posted? 我几乎立刻就收到了回复。那个叫比尔的男人说，他希望我们能电话聊聊，并附上了他的号码。当时我还和父母同住，不过那天下午他们正好出门了。于是我紧张地拿起手机拨通了号码。电话响了两声后，听筒那头传来一个声音。我结结巴巴地说："嗨，呃，我是凯文...我打电话是想问问你发布的那条广告？"

There was a short pause, and then the guy said, Kevin! I am so glad you called. I had a few people say they would reach out and never heard from them. Well, I'm actually glad that you did reach out. I thought your picture was very cute. So let me ask you, what makes you interested in the ad? 电话那头短暂停顿后，男人说道："凯文！真高兴你打来。之前有几个人说会联系我，但都没下文。你能打来我真的很开心。我觉得你的照片特别可爱。让我问问，是什么让你对那条广告感兴趣呢？"

I swallowed deeply and then responded in a tremulous voice, Well, the ad seemed to be just what I was looking for. Ever since I learned what a glory hole was I wanted to try it. But I'm pretty nervous and shy. I definitely don't want to do that in public. So I thought that your ad might be a way for me to try it in a safe, private space. 我深深咽了下口水，声音发颤地回答："嗯...那个广告正好符合我的需求。自从知道'glory hole'这种东西后，我就一直想试试。但我实在太紧张害羞了，绝对不敢在公共场所尝试。所以觉得你的广告或许能让我在安全私密的环境里体验..."

Bill laughed and said, Good, good! That is what I am hoping to hear from a young guy. As the conversation progressed, I realized Bill was super friendly. He told me he had helped a few other guys learn at the hole. He said this was perfectly normal for a young guy like me to want to explore. What's more, I would get to learn the best techniques for pleasuring all sorts of men, all in a safe space. He said that one way to think about it is an educational experience. Just like you might need an internship to learn how to become good at a job, this would be like an internship to become good at a blowjob. He laughed and said it was good for him too--he loved watching a young guy discover himself as a cocksucker. 比尔大笑着说，好，很好！这正是我想从一个年轻人那里听到的。随着谈话的深入，我意识到比尔非常友善。他告诉我，他已经帮助过几个其他人在这个“洞”里学习。他说，像我这样的年轻人想要探索是再正常不过的事了。更重要的是，我可以在一个安全的空间里学到取悦各种男人的最佳技巧。他说，可以把它看作是一种教育经历。就像你可能需要实习来学习如何做好一份工作一样，这将是一次学习如何成为口交高手的实习。他笑着说，这对他也有好处——他喜欢看着一个年轻人发现自己作为口交者的潜质。

He then said that he had a few questions for me. First, he wanted to know if I was expecting just to suck one guy's penis, or several. 然后他说，他有几个问题要问我。首先，他想知道我是只打算给一个人口交，还是给几个人。

At this point I was becoming more excited than nervous, and more comfortable with Bill, and I just decided to be honest. I told him I really wanted to suck several. He said, Oh, that's good to hear Kevin, but I have to ask, do you mean 2 or 3, or more than that? I was getting more and more excited, and so I thought I would be a little playful: How many can you find me? I asked. Bill didn't skip a beat: He said, Oh, I am pretty sure I can find, let's just say, more than enough... 此时我已不再紧张，反而愈发兴奋，对比尔也感到更加自在，于是决定坦诚相告。我告诉他我真的很想给几个人口交。他说，哦，凯文，很高兴听你这么说，但我得问清楚，你是指两三个，还是更多？我越来越兴奋，便想调皮一下：你能给我找多少个？我问道。比尔毫不犹豫地回答：哦，我相当肯定能找到，这么说吧，管够...

Then he said he had a pretty intimate question. He hoped I wouldn't be embarrassed. But he needed to know what would happen once a guy erupted into orgasm between my lips. You see, he said, it can take a new cocksucker back a bit when their mouth starts to fill up with cum. And so he needed to know, would I be willing to take it inside my mouth? And would I spit or swallow? 接着他提出了一个相当私密的问题。希望我不会觉得尴尬。但他需要知道当男人在我唇间达到高潮时会发生什么。你看，他说，新手在嘴里突然充满精液时可能会有点措手不及。所以他得确认，我愿意把精液含在嘴里吗？还有，我会吐掉还是咽下去？

That was an easy one. The idea that my mouth might fill with cum really excited me. I said I thought that I would like a guy to jizz in my mouth, and that I would like to swallow. It just feels like the right thing to do. 这个想法很简单。想到嘴里可能会充满精液，我就非常兴奋。我说我觉得我会喜欢让一个男人在我嘴里射精，而且我愿意吞下去。这感觉就像是应该做的事。

He said that was really good, that's what he wanted to hear. He told me I should follow my intuition about that, because he bet that the more I tasted, the more I would come to love it. The last thing he asked was, would I like to go see the hole today? At this point I couldn't wait. He said great, he would come pick me up if that was OK. I gave him my address and waited by the door. 他说那真是太好了，那正是他想听到的。他告诉我应该跟随自己的直觉，因为他打赌我尝得越多，就会越喜欢。最后他问的是，我今天想不想去看看那个洞？此刻我已经迫不及待了。他说太好了，如果没问题的话他会来接我。我把地址给了他，然后在门边等着。

In about 20 minutes, a dark BMW pulled up outside of my house. It was late fall, so I pulled on a sweater. My blonde mop of hair was tussled in the wind as I opened the door and slid into the passenger seat. This man wasn't lying, he was indeed handsome. He reached over and shook my hand and said, Hey, Kevin, nice to meet you. And then: Wow, you are even cuter in person! I shook his hand and we exchanged pleasantries. 大约 20 分钟后，一辆深色宝马停在我家门外。正值深秋，我套了件毛衣。开门钻进副驾驶座时，我那头乱蓬蓬的金发被风吹得东倒西歪。这男人没撒谎，他确实很英俊。他探过身来握手说道："嘿，凯文，很高兴认识你。"接着又感叹："哇，真人比想象中还可爱！"我与他握手寒暄了几句。

But things quickly took a turn. And not in the direction that I thought they would. He started to ask me if I had a job anywhere. I said that I occasionally shoveled snow but had not been able to find any part time work. I told him that I was looking forward to going to school next year, and I was a little bit worried about how I was going to pay for it. I started to wonder why he was asking me these questions, and it wasn't too long before he clarified. 但事情很快急转直下，而且完全出乎我的意料。他开始问我是否在任何地方有工作。我回答说偶尔会铲雪，但一直没能找到兼职。我告诉他我很期待明年能去上学，但有点担心学费问题。我开始疑惑他为何问这些问题，没过多久他就给出了解释。

He said, Look Kevin. I haven't told you the whole story. Everything I told you about the glory hole is true. Including me enjoying watching. But the thing is that I'm not the only guy who would be watching. You see, I run a webcam business. So I would film you on your side of the hole. And other guys would get to enjoy watching you online. He quickly added: Now before you say no, I just wanna let you know a little bit about the pay structure. Basically, you will get $100 an hour. It's a better deal than most jobs a young guy can find. And, what's more, you will be learning to do something you love. 他说，听着凯文。我还没告诉你全部实情。关于那个窥视孔的事都是真的，包括我喜欢观看的部分。但关键在于——不止我一个人会看。其实我经营着一项网络直播业务，所以我会在孔洞那头拍摄你的画面，让其他男人也能在线欣赏你。他迅速补充道：在你拒绝之前，我想先说明报酬机制。基础时薪是 100 美元，比普通年轻人能找到的工作强多了。更重要的是，你还能边赚钱边做自己爱做的事。

He looked over to see how I was taking this. And I think he must have been impressed. Because, actually, I was taking it incredibly well. The idea that I could get paid for doing this thing that I thought about constantly was incredibly exciting. Sure, I was little intimidated about the sheer number of men. And I was a little bit nervous about these videos existing of me... But I guess in my horniness the numbers excited me. And in my youthful naivete I thought only guys who like this stuff would be watching anyway. So why not? I smiled at Bill and told him it didn't bother me at all. In fact, the idea of getting paid sort of excited me more, and I could use the cash. 他转头看我如何反应。我想他一定很惊讶，因为实际上我接受得出奇地好。能靠做这件我日思夜想的事赚钱，这念头让我兴奋不已。当然，面对如此庞大的男性数量我有点发怵，想到自己的视频会流传出去也略感不安...但或许在欲火中烧时，人数反而让我更兴奋。而年轻天真的我以为只有好这口的人才会看这些视频。那有何不可？我冲比尔笑了笑，告诉他我完全不介意。事实上，有偿参与的想法更让我心跳加速，何况我也确实需要这笔钱。

He just said, Kevin, you are a truly impressive young man. 他只是说，凯文，你真是个令人印象深刻的年轻人。

We drove for about 20 minutes, about two towns over. It was an industrial area. There were a lot of auto mechanic shops and storage facilities. We pulled over to a small building. He put up the emergency brake and said that this was it. We got out and went over to a side door. Inside, it wasn't very impressive. It was a just small room. A few monitors were set up in a corner. In the middle of the wall opposite the door, I noticed a hole in the wall. The hole appeared well thought out. It was about the size of a baseball and had some leather with studs placed along the rim. There was even a slight groove at the bottom where it looked like the guy sucking could rest his chin. Near the hole was an armless secretarial chair and a small table. Bill told me a take a seat and check it out. I sat in the chair and wheeled myself up to the hole. I peered through, but the other side was quite dark. I imagined it was unlikely that I would be able to see much if anything of the men on the other side. Bill had that friendly dad-like smile, and just said, You look like a natural there kid. 我们开了大约 20 分钟，穿过两个小镇。那是一片工业区，有许多汽车修理店和仓储设施。我们把车停在一栋小楼前。他拉起手刹，说就是这里。下车后，我们走向一扇侧门。里面并不起眼，只是个小房间。角落里有几台显示器。正对门的墙中央，我注意到墙上有个洞。这个洞看起来设计得很周到，大约有棒球大小，边缘镶着带铆钉的皮革。底部甚至有个浅浅的凹槽，似乎是给口交的人放下巴用的。洞旁边有张无扶手秘书椅和小桌子。比尔让我坐下试试。我坐上椅子，滑到洞前窥视，但另一侧非常昏暗。我想象着对面男人的模样，但估计看不清什么。比尔露出慈父般的笑容说："孩子，你看起来天生就该坐在这儿。"

There was also a leather pad leaning against the wall--I figured it was one that I could kneel on. And then there was a table to the right with some tissues, hand sanitizer, lip balm, a strange device I did not quite understand, and a bottle of water. I also noticed that there were three cameras. One was to my left, aimed to film my face at the hole. The other was a small camera on the floor beneath the hole, pointed up, and the third was on the ceiling, pointed down. I was impressed how well-thought out this was. 墙上还靠着一个皮革垫——我猜那是用来跪的。右边有一张桌子，上面放着一些纸巾、洗手液、润唇膏、一个我不太明白的奇怪装置，还有一瓶水。我还注意到有三个摄像头：一个在我左边，对准洞口拍摄我的脸；另一个是地板上的小摄像头，从洞口下方朝上拍；第三个在天花板上，朝下拍摄。这套布置的周全程度让我印象深刻。

He then told me to follow him. We went around the small building to the other side. I realized then that the small building had been partitioned in two. And it had a door on the opposite side. He unlocked the door on that other side and we went in. Inside, I did not immediately see a hole. Instead, I saw some monitors and porn magazines and also several folding plastic chairs. There was a table with snacks and bottled water. Also a bowl of pills with the label "Viagra." He wasn't lying, it definitely had all the amenities a guy could need. 他让我跟着他。我们绕到小楼的另一侧，这时我才发现这栋小建筑被隔成了两半，对面还有一扇门。他打开那扇门锁，我们走了进去。里面并没有立刻看到洞口，而是几台显示器、色情杂志和几把折叠塑料椅。桌上摆着零食和瓶装水，还有一碗标着"Viagra"的药片。他没说谎，这里确实配备了男人可能需要的所有便利设施。

Beyond that there seemed to be an alcove, and I followed Bill over to it. When I looked in, I saw the leather-rimmed hole. The hole clearly opened to the other room that we had just been in. Bill explained that in order to keep a steady line at the hole, there had to be a waiting area. So usually 5 to 10, sometimes even 15 guys, waited in that area. There's often porn playing on the monitors, both straight and gay. We then walked outside the alcove, back into the waiting area, and he showed me a sign that read, First Come, First Cum. 除此之外，那里似乎还有一个凹室，我跟着比尔走了过去。往里看时，我看到了那个皮革镶边的洞口。这个洞显然通向我们刚才所在的另一个房间。比尔解释说，为了保持洞口前队伍的有序，必须设置一个等候区。通常会有 5 到 10 人，有时甚至 15 人在那里等待。屏幕上经常播放色情片，既有直人的也有同志的。然后我们走出凹室，回到等候区，他给我看了一个牌子，上面写着：先到先射。

He said that the waiting area is actually one of the best parts. The guys love hearing the one ahead of them moaning and getting sucked off. It excites them more. They are given very little information about the guy on the other side of the hole, and often try to guess what the guy looks like or how old he is. Sometimes they even take bets, and one of them wins when the video is released. He said, they often cheer each other on. Now, you might occasionally hear them call you a name you don't like, like slut or fag. But I would just ignore it. They mean well and are just having a good time. 他说等候区其实是最棒的部分之一。那些家伙特别喜欢听前面的人呻吟和被口交的声音，这让他们更加兴奋。他们几乎不知道洞另一头那个人的任何信息，常常会猜测对方长什么样或者多大年纪。有时候他们甚至会打赌，等视频发布时其中一人就能赢。他说，他们经常互相加油打气。现在，你偶尔可能会听到他们叫你一些你不喜欢的称呼，比如"骚货"或"基佬"。不过我会选择无视。他们没有恶意，只是玩得开心罢了。

I then asked how he would find these guys. He laughed again, but not in a mean way. He said, the thing is, he knew a lot of men who wanted their dicks sucked anonymously. Like a lot, a lot. From local ads, to a Grindr profile, to his connections from working in this business, he could find dozens to form a steady line. All sorts of guys would participate. It could be dads who are dropping their kids off at soccer practice, jocks, businessmen, college guys, construction workers--it was really all sorts of guys who wanted their dick sucked at a glory hole. The only thing it needed was a young cute guy who was willing to help them out. 接着我问他怎么找到这些人。他又笑了，但并无恶意。他说关键在于，他认识很多想匿名享受口交的男人——多到数不清。从本地广告到 Grindr 交友资料，再到他在这个行业工作积累的人脉，他能轻松召集几十号人排成长队。形形色色的男人都会参与：送孩子去足球训练的爸爸、运动健将、商务人士、大学生、建筑工人——真的什么类型都有，他们都想在窥视孔前被服务。唯一需要的，就是个愿意帮忙的年轻可爱小伙。

Bill then told me that he had tried this with a couple of different actors. And far and away, the comments from fans were that they wanted to see a young inexperienced guy work the hole. They wanted to see dozens of guys run an oral train on a young guy like me. So if I was ready to pleasure a lot of men, he could make it happen, almost a steady line at the hole for several hours at a time. And what could I say? My pants were tight, my heart was racing, and my mouth was watering. I was so excited that there was nothing that could stop me from giving an enthusiastic yes. I almost hugged him I was so excited. 比尔接着告诉我，他已经和几位不同的演员尝试过这种表演。而粉丝们的反馈压倒性地表明，他们想看到一个年轻无经验的男孩服务那个洞口。他们渴望目睹几十个男人对我这样的年轻男孩进行口交接龙。所以如果我准备好取悦众多男性，他就能安排成真——洞口前几乎能排起稳定的人龙，每次持续数小时。我还能说什么呢？我的裤子绷紧了，心跳加速，嘴里直流口水。我兴奋得无法自抑，毫不犹豫地给出了热情洋溢的肯定答复。激动之下，我差点就要拥抱他。

He then gave a few more details. Basically, we would consider this like a job. He would drive me over and we would get started at noon the following Saturday. He would run the invitations, ensuring a steady and seamless line. He said that he had a few ideas to make things more creative in future shots, but that we would focus on those when the time came. For now, we would keep it straightforward, just an 18 year old working the gloryhole. During the time I was working, it could be treated like a job. There were a few rules or policies he wanted me to remember. One was that I could take a 10 minute break here and there, but no major breaks. Two, because it needed to be filmed, it was really important to have a money shot. Once the guy started coming, I needed to open my mouth as wide as I can, pull back, and let him shoot inside my mouth to fill it. 接着他又补充了一些细节。基本上，我们会把这当作一份工作来看待。他会开车送我过去，我们将在下周六中午开始。他会负责发放邀请函，确保队伍稳定且流畅。他说他有一些想法，可以让未来的拍摄更具创意，但我们会等到时机成熟时再关注那些。目前，我们会保持简单直接，就是一个 18 岁的年轻人操作 gloryhole。在我工作期间，可以把它当作一份工作来对待。他有一些规则或政策希望我记住。一是我可以时不时休息 10 分钟，但不能有长时间的休息。二是因为需要拍摄，所以确保有“金钱镜头”非常重要。一旦对方开始射精，我需要尽可能张大嘴巴，往后仰，让他射进我的嘴里填满。

Third was what he called the open zipper policy. If a cock was sticking through the hole, I was expected to service it. All of the guys would be screened before the shoot, so there really was no reason not to suck someone. And he didn't want to develop a bad reputation for the company. If a certain penis did not look appealing, he said, think of it as a learning experience. 第三是他所谓的“拉链开放政策”。如果有阴茎从洞口伸出，我就得去服务它。所有参与拍摄的男性都会事先经过筛选，所以实在没有理由拒绝为任何人服务。而且他不想让公司背上坏名声。他说，如果某根阴茎看起来不吸引人，就把它当作一次学习经历。

And the fourth rule was the no hands policy. He said that too often guys at the hole would get lazy, and they would start jacking the guys off. He said that was not the purpose of the hole. I needed to work on my oral skills, using my tongue and lips to stimulate the penis. Occasionally it was ok to use hands, but he said he wanted that kept to a minimum. 第四条规则是“禁止用手”政策。他说，洞里的家伙们常常会偷懒，开始用手帮对方打飞机。他强调那不是这个洞存在的目的。我需要提升口技，用舌头和嘴唇来刺激阴茎。偶尔用手是可以的，但他表示希望尽量少用。

He asked me if I thought I could agree to all of that, and I said I could happily do it. He said great, and told me to fill out a few pieces of paperwork. 他问我是否认为自己能同意所有这些条件，我说我很乐意接受。他说太好了，并让我填写几份文件。

As we were leaving, he opened his desk drawer and pulled out a book. What's this, I asked. 我们正要离开时，他打开办公桌抽屉抽出一本书。这是什么？我问道。

He said he had a bit of homework for me to study. It was one that he created, and the title said "Home Décor." I was confused until I opened it, and realized the title was just to keep things discrete. The real title of the book was "The Art of the Gloryhole Blowjob." I flipped through it and saw several diagrams and instructions. All of the diagrams were sketches of different dicks sticking though a hole, with arrows and bullet points. Bill explained that this was not something I should worry too much about at this point. But he thought it might help me to know a few techniques before my first day. He told me to just fold it into the rest of my studies at school, and read maybe a chapter a day. 他说给我布置了点家庭作业要研读。那是他自创的书，封面写着《家居装饰》。我正困惑着，翻开才发现标题只是掩人耳目——这本书真正的名字是《壁孔口交的艺术》。我快速翻阅，看到许多带箭头和要点的示意图，全是不同阴茎从孔洞中穿出的素描。比尔解释说现阶段不必太在意这个，但觉得提前了解些技巧或许对我首日工作有帮助。他让我把这本书混在学校教材里，每天研读一章即可。

Most of the week I couldn't sleep. All I could think about was the hole. Pressing my face to it. Resting my chin on it. Opening my mouth to let a stranger stick his penis in. Pulling back so that it could shoot its load... I would often wake up in the middle of the night with what seemed like a permanent hard-on. The idea that it wouldn't only be one stranger's penis, but that he would leave, and then another stranger would come, and then another stranger after that. And I had agreed to take all of them, no matter what. The open zipper policy, as Bill called it. 一周中的大部分时间我都无法入睡。满脑子只想着那个洞口——把脸贴上去，下巴抵在上面，张开嘴让陌生人的阴茎插入，再退后让它喷射……我常在半夜醒来，下体硬得像永远无法消退。想到那不会只是一根陌生人的阴茎，而是他离开后会有下一个，再下一个。而我承诺过要接纳所有来者，毫无保留。比尔称之为"拉链永开政策"。

During those early morning hours, I would grab the book. I was keeping it hidden under my mattress. I would pull it out and read about a new technique. The book was broken into chapters. The first one was Types of Dicks. It featured long, thick, small, cut, uncut, the mushroom head, the short and long foreskin. Each had descriptions of how to offer special attention to that particular type, and things to watch out for. For instance, with the thick penis, it was advised to be especially careful of the teeth. For the uncut dick, it was advised to use the tongue to try to pull the foreskin back. 在那些清晨时分，我会偷偷抽出藏在床垫下的书。翻开书页研读新技巧，这本书按章节划分：第一章是《阴茎类型大全》，详细介绍了粗长型、短小型、割过包皮的、未割包皮的、蘑菇头状的、长短包皮等各类特征。每种类型都配有专属的侍弄诀窍和注意事项——比如对待粗壮阴茎要格外当心牙齿磕碰，未割包皮的则建议用舌尖轻轻卷开包皮褶皱。

The second chapter was How to Use Your Mouth. It had several different techniques. I flipped to one: the twister. With this technique, you insert the penis halfway into your mouth. Then you pull away with a slight twist of the head while sucking. This gives a powerful sucking sensation to the guy receiving the blowjob. It said this was particularly good for when he appears ready to climax. 第二章名为《口技运用》。其中介绍了多种技巧。我翻到其中一页：螺旋式。这种技巧需要将阴茎含入口中一半，然后在吸吮时轻轻扭转头部后撤。这能给接受口交的男性带来强烈的吮吸快感。书上说这个技巧特别适合对方即将达到高潮时使用。

The third chapter was Cuming. I opened to one of those pages. It had a hand drawn cock poking through a hole, a guy's mouth an inch away, and sperm shooting into the guy's mouth. I read the description: "Often, the man receiving the blowjob will not give warning. Instead, you will feel a warm liquid suddenly shoot volley after volley at the back of your throat. Your mouth will then quickly start to fill up. At this point, you should steady the penis, pull back a few inches with mouth open as wide as possible until he has finished ejaculating. Lick any remaining come from the head of his cock." 第三章名为《高潮将至》。我翻到其中一页，上面画着从洞口伸出的手绘阴茎，男人的嘴离它只有一寸远，精液正射入他口中。配文写道："通常，接受口交的男人不会提前预警。你会突然感到温热的液体一波接一波射向喉咙深处，口腔很快就会被填满。此时你应当稳住阴茎，张大嘴巴向后退出几寸，直到他射精完毕。最后要舔净龟头上残留的精液。"

The fourth chapter of the manual was Common Types of Feedback. This was mostly about things the men would say from the other side of the hole. It was broken into praise, critique, special requests, slurs, and swearing. I turned to the slurs section. It read, "Remember, many men are stimulated by calling the person performing oral sex slurs. It is important to remember this is not criticism. Instead, it is a way for him to further stimulate himself. Some of the slurs you can expect to be called are: Slut, fag, cum dump, cocksucker. Often it will be used in a sentence, such as `That's it, slut, take my cock.' The best thing to do when you receive this feedback is to refocus on your technique." 手册第四章是《常见反馈类型》。这部分主要讲述洞口另一侧男性常说的话，分为表扬、批评、特殊要求、侮辱性用语和脏话几类。我翻到侮辱性用语章节，上面写道："请记住，许多男性会通过辱骂口交者来获得刺激。这并非批评，而是他自我刺激的方式。你可能听到的侮辱性称呼包括：骚货、死基佬、精液垃圾桶、吃鸡巴的。通常会出现完整句式，比如'就这样，骚货，含住老子的鸡巴'。收到这类反馈时，最佳应对方式是重新专注于你的技巧。"

At first I was a little overwhelmed by the information. However, the more I studied the pages, the more I got more excited. I couldn't wait to put the theory into practice. And the fact that I would get paid for doing this was icing on the cake. 一开始，这些信息让我有点不知所措。但随着我深入研究这些页面，我变得越来越兴奋。我迫不及待地想把理论付诸实践。而做这件事还能得到报酬，更是锦上添花。

Finally, Saturday morning arrived. I tried to get ready. I made sure to shave the little peach fuzz I had on my lip so that the guys wouldn't feel any stubble. This really wasn't an issue anyway, because I barely had any facial hair. I was almost completely hairless. But I wanted to do my best to make my mouth as enjoyable for the guys as possible. Once I was done, I sat down to wait for Bill to get me. My dad was working and my mom was out all day at a baby shower, so I didn't have to worry about them. 终于，星期六的早晨到来了。我努力做好准备，特意刮掉了嘴唇上那层细软的绒毛，以免让男人们感觉到胡茬。其实这根本不算问题，因为我几乎没什么胡须，身上几乎光溜溜的。但我想尽力让我的嘴能给男人们带来最大的享受。收拾妥当后，我坐下来等比尔来接我。爸爸在上班，妈妈整天都在外参加迎婴派对，所以不用担心他们。

I decided to spend a little time studying the hole again. This was the last and shortest section. It had an image of the studded leather hole with a detailed description under it. I skipped over the part about its size and lighting situation. I wanted to learn more about how to use the chin rest. It said, "Remember, if you become tired, the chinrest is there to help you continue working. You can simply place you chin there, open your mouth, and let the guy do the work. If keeping your jaw open for that long becomes tiring, there is an invisible dental apparatus that you can use. It gently and discretely keeps your jaw open wide enough to accommodate all but the largest dicks. That way, you can literally rest your chin, with your mouth open, and let as many men use the hole until you are ready to resume actively sucking." 我决定再花点时间研究那个洞口。这是最后也是最短的一节，配有带铆钉皮洞口的图片及详细说明。我跳过了关于尺寸和照明情况的描述，想重点了解下巴托的使用方法。说明写道："记住，若感到疲惫，下巴托可助你持续工作。只需将下巴搁在上面，张开嘴，让对方主动即可。若长时间保持张口姿势吃力，可使用隐形牙科装置——它能轻柔隐蔽地撑开下颌，适应绝大多数尺寸的阴茎。这样你就能真正让下巴休息着保持张口状态，在准备好重新主动吮吸前，任由多名男性使用这个洞口。"

I was really curious about all of those details, and was just about to read more, when Bill pulled up in his BMW. I slammed the book shut and stuck it into my backpack. Bill opened the door and I slid in. He smiled and said, Did you finish all of your homework? You know there will be a test before you can start. 我对那些细节充满了好奇，正打算继续往下读，这时比尔开着他的宝马车到了。我猛地合上书，塞进背包。比尔拉开车门，我钻了进去。他笑着问：“作业都做完了吗？你知道开始前会有个小测验的。”

Really? I said, suddenly worried I might not be able to pass it. 真的吗？我说道，突然担心自己可能无法通过。

He then started to laugh, and I realized he was joking. Listen kid, he said, don't worry too much about all of that. It will start to make sense when you are doing it. The book is just meant as a guide. And you might even be able to add your own techniques to the book after you do it for a while. 然后他开始大笑，我这才意识到他在开玩笑。听着，孩子，他说，别太担心那些。当你真正去做的时候就会明白了。这本书只是个指南。而且做了一段时间后，你甚至可能往书里添加自己的技巧。

In almost no time we arrived at the building. When we drove by the side of the building where the guys would go in, Bill slowed down. I noticed that there were several cars outside. Maybe as many as 15. Another one was pulling up and a guy got out and walked to the door of the waiting area. I did not see his face, but he looked husky, was wearing jeans, a light jacket, and a ball cap. He walked up to the door, looked cautiously around, and went in. 我们很快就到了那栋楼。当车经过男士入口那一侧时，比尔放慢了车速。我注意到外面停着好几辆车，可能有十五辆左右。又一辆车驶来停下，一个男人下车走向等候区的门。我没看清他的脸，但他看起来体格魁梧，穿着牛仔裤、轻便夹克，戴着棒球帽。他走到门前，谨慎地环顾四周，然后走了进去。

Bill said that when the notice went out that the company would be introducing a new star, so many guys said that they wanted to be first in line that they had to make a que. Not every guy who wanted to come today could get a slot. So you already got a crowd waiting for you. I could feel my briefs getting tighter when he said this. Just think, 15 guys, all with a hard dick, just waiting to cum in my mouth! 比尔说，当公司宣布将引入新星的消息一出，太多人表示想第一个排队，以至于不得不排成长队。不是每个想今天来的人都能得到机会。所以你已经有了一群人在等着你。听他说这话时，我能感觉到我的内裤变紧了。想想看，15 个家伙，全都硬着，就等着射进我嘴里！

He said that the good news was that we weren't going to park on that side, so I didn't have to worry about any of them seeing me. We pulled around and parked right next to the door on the other side. The two of us walked into the room where I would be working all afternoon. Inside there was another guy, this one in his early 40s. He was tall and slender and had wavy dark hair and a friendly face. Bill introduced him as Pete. Pete walked up and gave me a firm handshake. Hi Kevin, it's a pleasure to meet you. If you need anything today, I will be running interference between you and the guys. So just let me know. I am going to head over there now and get your first cock on deck. 他说好消息是我们不会停在那边，所以我不必担心被他们中的任何人看到。我们绕过去，直接停在了另一边的门旁边。我们俩走进我将工作整个下午的房间。里面还有一个人，四十出头，高瘦身材，有着波浪状的黑发和友善的面孔。比尔介绍他叫皮特。皮特走上前来，给了我一个有力的握手。"嗨，凯文，很高兴见到你。如果你今天需要什么，我会在你和那些家伙之间协调。所以尽管告诉我。我现在就过去，给你准备好第一个家伙。"

After he left, Bill then put his hand on my shoulder and asked, how are you feeling? 他离开后，比尔把手放在我的肩膀上问道，你感觉怎么样？

I looked at the hole and the cameras and took a deep swallow. I smiled but I must have looked worried. He said listen, you are going to do great. These guys are going to love you. They all know that this is the first time that you have ever performed oral sex, and they think that's actually a good thing. There is nothing to be worried about. They want to be the ones to break you in and teach you how to suck dick. 我望着那个洞口和摄像头，深深咽了口唾沫。我挤出微笑，但表情一定泄露了不安。他安慰道：听着，你会表现得很棒的。这些家伙都会喜欢你。他们都知道这是你第一次进行口交，而他们觉得这反而是件好事。根本没什么可担心的——他们正渴望成为引导你、教你如何取悦男人的人。

I said thanks. I was really glad that I had found someone so generous who would help me with this. I sat down in the armless secretarial chair and took a couple of deep breaths. I looked at the few things on my table: the bottle of water, the tissues, the chapstick. And then I also noticed what looked like the dental guard that would prop open my mouth later. I took a deep breath, and reached for the lip balm and smeared it on. Funny, I could have sworn I heard someone yell, Oh yeah, he's ready to take it, from the other side. But how would they know? I must have imagined it. 我道了谢。能遇到如此热心帮我完成这件事的人，实在庆幸。我在无扶手的办公椅上坐下，深呼吸了几次。扫视桌上寥寥几物：水瓶、纸巾、润唇膏。接着注意到那个稍后用来撑开我嘴巴的牙科开口器。我又深吸一口气，抓起润唇膏涂抹起来。真奇怪，恍惚间似乎听见对面有人喊"哦耶，他准备好接招了"，可他们怎么会知道？多半是幻觉吧。

Bill pushed the button on a walkie talkie, and said, Pete, tell the first guy to step up to the batter's box. After a few seconds, Pete responded, he's standing at the hole. 比尔按下对讲机按钮说道："皮特，让第一位上场吧。"几秒后皮特回应："他已就位在洞口。"

Bill then looked at me. OK, we're ready, Kevin, the cameras are rolling. There's already a guy on the other side. When you want to start, flip the panel. Bill winked and then added: Kevin, good luck with that first dick. You were meant for this. 比尔随后看向我。好了，我们准备好了，凯文，摄像机在运转了。另一边已经有个家伙在等着了。你想开始时，就翻转面板。比尔眨了眨眼，又补充道：凯文，祝你好运，搞定那第一根家伙。你天生就是干这个的料。

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